YSaturday, August 13, 2005
Took a break from project work..lucky for me i got the time to blog..heh. extremely crap. Thats wat im feeling rite now..and i look like crap.haha..nothings new actually..i just cant wait for the Sem break.....WHEE~~~!
Hm..i worked midnyt shift last nyte..extremely exhausting......tsk. and now im in the lab with no sleep since 2300hrs... (c wat i mean by no life?) anyways, it seems like everyone is rushing to meet the deadline..i can feel the tension in tis lab..its scary how evry1 look so tense..but amusing at the same time..bcoz ppl might be looking at me tat way too! *laughs*
Anyways, friday was kinda a sucky day...seriously...im soooo gona flunk my BCS paper..and on top of tat, he actually saw me walking pass him in Tamp! n i was like clad in a huge sweatshirt and superr baggy jeans....YIKES! i was really2 at my worst..n he just had to bump into me in tis state..how unlucky!
And o yeah..i read frenster abt the month tat ur born and how it roughly tells the kinda person you are.. well here it is..
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outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds onattention. no self control. kind hearted. selfconfident. loud and boisteroius. VERY revengeful.easy to get along with and talk to. hasan "everything's peachy" attitude. loves screaming,talking and singing. loves music. daydreamer.easily distracted. loves to flirt. hates beingleft out.hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves tobe loved. hates studying. in need of "thatsomeone". longs for freedom. rebellious whewithheld or restricted. lives by "no pain no gain"caring. always a suspect. playful.mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to a specailperson. stubborn. courious. independent. strongwilled. a fighter.
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it's so alike to the kinda person i am...amazed!
I have been blabbering loadsa abt sch and project and guys...so yeah..im gona complain about my sis..she's somehow distant from me. it could be because of her relationshp problem..but its kinda unfair dun u tink? to neglect me and see me and just talk to me when she feels like talking...i've nerver felt so unwanted by her before..and today, she just told me to take care and study hard....she said if anythg happen to her..she wans me to tel my mum tat she owe lots to kak sha..wth. she signed off tellin me tat she loves me..(i duno whether its true).... I get frustrated each time i c her...it's like she's a diff person and i duno her anymore and it aggrevates each and every nerve thats working in my body...really..
im dissapointed by the fact that i could look up to her...so high...but then she's proving me wrong..that she's weak..and independable.
I really duno how to converse wit her nemore..im just too disappointed to even try to open up to her.. what has happened to her? why is she letting something SO UNCERTAIN bring herself down? why cant she just pick herself up and face it and move on? SHYT HAPPENS.
I believe that we should all just accept it and work around it...all tis SHYT actually makes you a better person right?
it will actually define who u are..in time.
so why keep fretting??
That's wat i've learnt and managed to accept..n i hope you guys and my sis especially can juz fathom this and do it.
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